Not a little known fact.

It's not a little known fact that I am a Nipponophile and as such I had been penpal-ing with a girl from Akihabara for the last 2 years.  Things were going GREAT, well, then the earthquake/tsunami happened.  No, that isn't true she stopped writing me on February 26th, believe me I have figured in that she is a busy person, she mentioned she is in the computer programming field so obviously she has things in her life besides speaking very little Japanese for being a native, though she explained she was raised in the states but moved back for school.  Anyways, we really connected but I don't know how involved I should be we've only ever talked over the internet... never exchanged photos I feel an emotional attachment but am I silly in this respect.  But I emailed her my last email... This'll probably sound pathetic but I kept to our letter schedule and emailed her at least once a week.  So there are now a bunch of unanswered emails so... I said a final good bye and bid her the VERY best with her life.  I thought leaving it on a high-note was for the best because I do hurt emotionally but she was one of the nicest most interesting people I had ever met.

Already June?

Yeah, I thought I'd be more active and I've logged in a few times wanting to tell of the progress I've made but then I look at the chapters and I'm not even out of chapter 3 yet!!  I haven't done a word count or a page count since I got the book published so I don't know where I am sitting but just eye balling it it looks impressive.  By the next blog I'll have those numbers for everyone!

the day things happen.

Well it's the day of my birth (I'm not a fan of the day but I'm usually in a bad mood on my birthday... go figure.)  So yeah, working on the book has slowed down again.  Well I'm going to start writing later today.  Since con I haven't felt very positive, but that's because I saw my "friends" and for the most part the ones that showed up act like I should be on my knees rimming them out because they are such high-level beings and I'm the lowest form of life in the evolutionary chain.  One even emailed me after the weekend and told me I was rude for not thanking him for being there a whole half-hour...  but at least with the book the bad things that happen are only words on a page.  Then have depth and meaning to me but their only words, ones that I believe in.

I have to make the day better.  I'm great at a lot of things.  And I cannot continue to allow myself to be hurt by these people who only come to see me when they have been dumped or in need of sleeping 20+ hours a day.  Now if only one of the places I applied at would call me for an interview or better yet I got hired finally.  Now that would make a good birthday present, lol.

Negative Man

So comic con is just 5 days away.  Now if I was going to dress up I would have my costume done by this point.  I was planning on going as Hige from Wolf's Rain.  But oh no.  Last night we decided (me and kara) that I was going to be a DC hero so I, like usual, chose a hero that is less known so I picked Negative Man from the series Doom Patrol.  So like usual my mom will not allow me to use her sowing machine because she thinks I'll wreck it.

So Joe will be here Friday.  I don't know what Nick's plans are but he's bringing his new girlfriend.  It's so great when someone tells you they'll be single for months to get over their "heart break" yet get with a new person not even a week later.  I hate how fickle some people are.  And people who overly use the word love.  But no time for rants.  I'll be posting pics on my facebook after con and hopefully my birthday will be nice, the weekend after.  Since my mom doesn't want to do anything with me...

But there is the update.

why I post so late at night.

I don't really have an answer other then this is the last thing I do before I go to bed... granted that isn't until around 3 am...I wish I had something more to drive me but I don't so :P haha.  Still working on the book.  Writing more Peter parts yay!!  Otherwise no progress on the story boards but the idea of doing the book as a graphic novel seems far more a dream of the future then the now.  Though I did do a spread sheet with Jennie, her facial expressions and some poses but mostly stuck to faces.

I beat Dragon Quest 9 today WOO-HOO.  The final boss Corvus was a bastard... my Sage died and I could not revive her as my theif (yeah, theif) crit'd on her super-high tension Falcon Slash with the Uber Falcon Blade so a 4-hit combo doing more then 8000 damage.  This was awesome because normal critical hits do anywhere between 230-400 so for a 4-combo to do collectively 8000 damage the Uber-Falcon Blade was not a waste after all.  Anyways, so doing post-game stuff.  Getting the starry express back, become celestial again, defeating the legacy bosses.  Stuff I will concur when I'm not working on this, lol.

As angels made from neon raise their open filthy stinking palms.

Subjectivity is the name of the game.   Living in the hollowed out husk of someone else's dream.  We strive for a place where we can rest our weary bones, but hope that that place isn't made up of the people you've hurt.

Forgiveness is easier then hating the world.  Growing, maturing, perspectives change but do we ever really grow closer to knowing ourselves?  Perfection is an ideal that can make you lose sight of your way.

manga Miasma Angels?

So besides the obvious problems that come to mind right away.

This is what I've wanted to do with MA from the very beginning.  As a child I wanted to be a cartoonist, as a teenager I wanted to draw comics, as I came into adulthood I still want to do both.  But Miasma Angels was written and I have wanted to do this forever since I do art for the book regardless of people who have said its a dumb idea.

So I might be looking into doing this.  I need to research a little more and start this new endeavor in my Miasma saga.