Untitled Soul

Look at how worthless my life is. I'll be 24 in a few months I'm jobless, I don't have a girlfriend or wife... no children. I live with my parent who constantly remind me of my worthlessness. I'm even bossed around by a four year old. Isn't life grand. I live 3 almost 4 hours from the people I went to high-school with. I cant find a sympathetic ear for miles. I've been working on a novel for five years now with little to nothing to show for it. Worthless built upon worthless. I think suicide could be a way out but not for anyone that remains with my mounting debt and have to inherit my worthless spirit. I'm not looking for advice or friends. It just helps me to get a little of this off of my chest. A lot more people have it worse off then I do and I am trying my hardest to remain positive but it is pretty hard when everyone around me are so fucking depressed and dark. Making new friends shows no merit since I just turn out to be a horrid friend anyways. "There's nothing left but my nightmares. I'd ask you to stay but it's dead here. Listen you almost hear me laughing watch the world ends."