He is many things but above all others he is human.
Is that vague enough for you world!!! Ambiguity is the name of the muther-F*N game and the one that makes the least sense wins.
But on a more serious note. I decided to add some gory details from his past into book 1's 4th rewrite... if you do the math that is like a rewrite every 1.75 years... So really this is a good thing. I'm obviously a slow learner and I will never give up on giving this world, these characters a proper tribute!
Major Changes:
*Hom is now Alba (gaelic word for home so I felt it fit better with the worldscope.)
*Stouri Beegens is Souien which is already pretty much canon besides some flub ups on my part.
*Jennie will be seeing more combat... literally. She'll be fighting by the festival. Albeit not as seasoned as Haru/Nigel/Jin but holding her own... I'm thinking of adding some Karate Kid moments for her and Haru create some tension. (okay someone can stop me if Haru/Jennie is bordering on pedophilia... it's supposed to be her first real crush and I SWEAR to YWVH I will not allow any perversions in my book that goes beyond the crush zone.)
*the introductions of Tamatsu, Tryst and Pierce may or may not happen anymore... I might have more fleshing out to do and I was thinking of either moving the monastery scene further towards the beginning to omitting it all together. That stuff is still in the air.
*Adding the COLORs is a definite but also omitting Joseph and any Zeriel portions, that stuff is WAY TOO early... but maybe not?
*Peter's back story will be added but only portions, the Rose stuff and his days with Pengelworm.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Brother-in-Laws
So yeah, I wasn't home at all last night so I didn't get much written but I did get to read (no harry potter 4 but you know I'm taking my time with Harry and his crew, lol.) Mike called me last night and reminded me that they wanted me to come to St. Cloud with them for his leg refitting. Yay... er, not so much. Got over to Kara's around 10 last night and watched Mike play his baseball game for an hour then he watched Hawaii 5-0 and I read this secret society book Kara had left at the 'rents. Then Kara got home and after she did her after work ritual we watched 2 episodes of Red Green... then they went to bed and I watched American Dad/Family Guy then read a little more and went to bed... that was around 3:15 right at 7 o'clock Mike's alarm started going off and he took his sweet time to turn it off (by sweet time I mean 10-15 minutes. That's a stubborn alarm, lol.) Then he woke up and chugged through the house (there is no honest way to describe the sound his walker makes as he shuffles around.) The step-nephew was off to school and I pretended to stay asleep to avoid awkward conversations.
We were 20 minutes late for his appointment and I stayed in the waiting room, playing my ds while Mike was refitted and measured. This is the first time since the wedding I've seen him dawn his leg. And I don't know why it irks me so much that he doesn't use it but it does. I guess I always imagine what if it was me in that position. You know I wouldn't let losing my leg stop me! He just doesn't have the drive and it really seems like a shame.
So after that we bummed around crossroads for a while and Kara decided to buy a ring. (maybe it's a female thing or just my sister but she purchases jewelery for the strangest reasons?) I saw at one of the kiosks that they had a copy of Bomberman Hero... I wish I hadn't sold my n64 when I was 14... I loved that game SO much and I think someday I will try and get it again. Anyways, then I got home after some magical vehicle swapping and got home to see my facebook was hacked... ugh. So I changed the password, again (this is #6) and talked to a old RPing buddy. So there's the update. I have to think of what to have for dinner and then I'm gonna try working on MA some. I've been thinking about it more and feeling rejuvenated at the idea of working on it.
We were 20 minutes late for his appointment and I stayed in the waiting room, playing my ds while Mike was refitted and measured. This is the first time since the wedding I've seen him dawn his leg. And I don't know why it irks me so much that he doesn't use it but it does. I guess I always imagine what if it was me in that position. You know I wouldn't let losing my leg stop me! He just doesn't have the drive and it really seems like a shame.
So after that we bummed around crossroads for a while and Kara decided to buy a ring. (maybe it's a female thing or just my sister but she purchases jewelery for the strangest reasons?) I saw at one of the kiosks that they had a copy of Bomberman Hero... I wish I hadn't sold my n64 when I was 14... I loved that game SO much and I think someday I will try and get it again. Anyways, then I got home after some magical vehicle swapping and got home to see my facebook was hacked... ugh. So I changed the password, again (this is #6) and talked to a old RPing buddy. So there's the update. I have to think of what to have for dinner and then I'm gonna try working on MA some. I've been thinking about it more and feeling rejuvenated at the idea of working on it.
Monday, May 2, 2011
the Miasma Angels
So yep, I seemed to have found a new wind... it's a slow building gust but soon it'll be taking me over and returning me to the longest love. The MA universe, the only success I've had in my short 25 years on this planet. I am adding to the world, a very dear friend and fellow writer has been SO much help that I cannot honestly thank her enough. She'll remain ambiguous for the moment but she'll have a special shout out in the revised dedications.
As for updates... I've added more dialogue to Peter and Barbara and I am VERY happy with this. It's like I'm just getting to know these two. They are so wonderful and it'll be great to finally flesh them out. EVEN Otto is finally getting dialogue, I'm sure he's had some things to say but I'm glad his childhood mutism passed. And finally getting to introduce Rio to the world as more then the bubbly girlfriend. She'll be surprising to see where she'll take her parts :D
Also I want to add that the book will be ending in a new place. This will hopefully give a more suspenseful and climactic ending. One that I feel is much more proper than the ending I caved into putting in because of my feelings of inadequacy. Jin will be fleshed out and I am a little unsure if I should add his backstory. If I can find a way to link it properly then I will be adding it in. Also Haru's role will be expanded and I may or may not be delving into more of his back story.
Well that is the book update. I hope the ether is kind to all those that are out there.
As for updates... I've added more dialogue to Peter and Barbara and I am VERY happy with this. It's like I'm just getting to know these two. They are so wonderful and it'll be great to finally flesh them out. EVEN Otto is finally getting dialogue, I'm sure he's had some things to say but I'm glad his childhood mutism passed. And finally getting to introduce Rio to the world as more then the bubbly girlfriend. She'll be surprising to see where she'll take her parts :D
Also I want to add that the book will be ending in a new place. This will hopefully give a more suspenseful and climactic ending. One that I feel is much more proper than the ending I caved into putting in because of my feelings of inadequacy. Jin will be fleshed out and I am a little unsure if I should add his backstory. If I can find a way to link it properly then I will be adding it in. Also Haru's role will be expanded and I may or may not be delving into more of his back story.
Well that is the book update. I hope the ether is kind to all those that are out there.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Breaks and Dragon Quest 9
So one of my infamous Ex's Liz caught me on Facebook the other day and I'm pretty sure she had been drinking just because she was changing the subject a lot. But she expressed the desire to work on something with me... For whatever reason she thinks us doing this will somehow put us back in the place so we might date. I've expressed that I don't want to be with her anymore she's hurt me more then I like to admit even to myself so I picked a story I haven't touched in a while with the knowledge that because of it she would most likely go back to her corner of the internet. But this time she said she wanted to try working on it. Surprise much. Well we'll see if she gets back to me about this.
Also I've been playing Dragon Quest 9 some more and my official time is around 110 hours. So yeah, the only game I've played more than this is the Persona series. Which I cannot wait for 'Catherine' to come out OMG that game looks good! Anyways. Just trying to keep myself to updating more then once every 6 months to a year.
Also I've been playing Dragon Quest 9 some more and my official time is around 110 hours. So yeah, the only game I've played more than this is the Persona series. Which I cannot wait for 'Catherine' to come out OMG that game looks good! Anyways. Just trying to keep myself to updating more then once every 6 months to a year.
Taking breaks and Zoranger.
So one of my infamous Ex's Liz caught me on Facebook the other day and I'm pretty sure she had been drinking just because she was changing the subject a lot. But she expressed the desire to work on something with me... For whatever reason she thinks us doing this will somehow put us back in the place so we might date. I've expressed that I don't want to be with her anymore she's hurt me more then I like to admit even to myself so I picked a story I haven't touched in a while with the knowledge that because of it she would most likely go back to her corner of the internet. But this time she said she wanted to try working on it. Surprise much. Well we'll see if she gets back to me about this.
Also I've been playing Dragon Quest 9 some more and my official time is around 110 hours. So yeah, the only game I've played more than this is the Persona series. Which I cannot wait for 'Catherine' to come out OMG that game looks good! Anyways. Just trying to keep myself to updating more then once every 6 months to a year.
Also I've been playing Dragon Quest 9 some more and my official time is around 110 hours. So yeah, the only game I've played more than this is the Persona series. Which I cannot wait for 'Catherine' to come out OMG that game looks good! Anyways. Just trying to keep myself to updating more then once every 6 months to a year.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Ex-girlfriends
I feel like I am in that movie 'Good Luck Chuck' all my ex's seem so happy and all but one are married to the guy they met after me. A few even have kids! Makes you think about things, you know? But let's face it. We ended for some pretty legitimate reason Liz, I let her walk all over me and treat me like shit... sure I the model of indignation at the end and that was why I ended up snapping and going into my year of isolation and working midnights at a radio stations helped that. Allie, I wasn't exciting enough. Ashley was my real commitment but in the end I found out she was dating me in spite. Our relationship was nothing but a mean girl dong something just because she knew someone else wanted me. Jennifer... well there was more regret in that break up then I want to admit. Pavi was a cruel joke who claimed I was emotionless and never told her how I felt... that makes me laugh even now. And then lastly there was Kiersten... she told me again and again we were nothing. Yet we... It felt so much deeper to me. But I was only a place holder, a rebound to make her nice and ready for her next relationship. Nice right. Well they are all happy and have added me on facebook so I can be reminded every couple days of how great their lives are... if I go through and remove friends I'll prolly remove most of them. They don't talk to me and really what are friends that don't even talk?
This is all culminating down to my family... most one of my aunt's that decided to take it upon herself to find out once and for all if I like women or not... First off can anyone say AWKWARD! She wanted to know my type so they could help me meet someone when we went downtown (this was during the 4th of July and we were attending some all-school reunion since my parents graduated from there.) Anyways. 90% of my family think I'm gay, which would be fine if I was... but I'm not. I mean, everyone's had moments of homosexuality but I'm just not turned on by men. No offense guys. But yeah. I can only guess at why everyone feels the need to pursue this. Maybe the fam is just worried that I'm going to be alone and not have a legacy? Kids would be great but I am neither in a relationship or financially stable to raise one. And even if I were in a relationship I really don't know if I'd be decent father material... but that is neither here nor there.
This is all culminating down to my family... most one of my aunt's that decided to take it upon herself to find out once and for all if I like women or not... First off can anyone say AWKWARD! She wanted to know my type so they could help me meet someone when we went downtown (this was during the 4th of July and we were attending some all-school reunion since my parents graduated from there.) Anyways. 90% of my family think I'm gay, which would be fine if I was... but I'm not. I mean, everyone's had moments of homosexuality but I'm just not turned on by men. No offense guys. But yeah. I can only guess at why everyone feels the need to pursue this. Maybe the fam is just worried that I'm going to be alone and not have a legacy? Kids would be great but I am neither in a relationship or financially stable to raise one. And even if I were in a relationship I really don't know if I'd be decent father material... but that is neither here nor there.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Updates.
So, yes. I've been thinking too much about not thinking enough. I have been working myself into a corner and maybe I should take a break from my main body of work. I think there is a curse on my FF story that as soon as I decided to add it to the MA universe I've had writers block every since. So this is the day that I decide that that will not be a problem anymore. Demiurge's Wraith will for the time being GO back to the recesses of my psyche and stay in it's tartarus prison until I feel it will benefit instead of being the bother that it always ends up becoming.
As for the book. There is reworking going on and I have felt a need to fix the ending... the "current" ending to me feels rushed, empty and emotionless. I don't know if it's just me or what but there is a certain element missing from Miasma that has been missing since the original draft way back in 2004-2006. Maybe it's my influences, maybe it's me. It seems the older I get the more ridiculous some of the ideas seem. Originally it was such a lighthearted endeavor. A girl journeying around the world, meeting fantastic creatures and people. Reshaping everything along her unstoppable innocence... really it might be something too big for me to achieve. I mean, when I started the first book took a little under 9 months to write and I was moving at the speed of light. Now I'm lucky if I finish editing half the book in a year. I've never been one for fleshing out the whole of the book, which I've often thought I need to rethink and actually do. The writing process would move so much faster, maybe?
I think a lot of what is happening is that I am depressed most of the time but put on strong front most of the time. I usually don't make a deal of it unless I trust the person. And trust is something I never enter into lightly. Pain and hardship seem to be catalysts for the walls I've built around myself. This too might be why I haven't been able to have long meaningful relationships with women and I am fed up with my family asking me when I'm going to come out of the closet. I have no problem with gay or lesbian people but I just don't find men attractive. If I didn't have a penis I wouldn't be a fan of them. Typically because I always end up sitting on and or pinching mine somehow so there's that... not to go there but whatever, lol.
So there is the update.
As for the book. There is reworking going on and I have felt a need to fix the ending... the "current" ending to me feels rushed, empty and emotionless. I don't know if it's just me or what but there is a certain element missing from Miasma that has been missing since the original draft way back in 2004-2006. Maybe it's my influences, maybe it's me. It seems the older I get the more ridiculous some of the ideas seem. Originally it was such a lighthearted endeavor. A girl journeying around the world, meeting fantastic creatures and people. Reshaping everything along her unstoppable innocence... really it might be something too big for me to achieve. I mean, when I started the first book took a little under 9 months to write and I was moving at the speed of light. Now I'm lucky if I finish editing half the book in a year. I've never been one for fleshing out the whole of the book, which I've often thought I need to rethink and actually do. The writing process would move so much faster, maybe?
I think a lot of what is happening is that I am depressed most of the time but put on strong front most of the time. I usually don't make a deal of it unless I trust the person. And trust is something I never enter into lightly. Pain and hardship seem to be catalysts for the walls I've built around myself. This too might be why I haven't been able to have long meaningful relationships with women and I am fed up with my family asking me when I'm going to come out of the closet. I have no problem with gay or lesbian people but I just don't find men attractive. If I didn't have a penis I wouldn't be a fan of them. Typically because I always end up sitting on and or pinching mine somehow so there's that... not to go there but whatever, lol.
So there is the update.
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