Well it's the day of my birth (I'm not a fan of the day but I'm usually in a bad mood on my birthday... go figure.) So yeah, working on the book has slowed down again. Well I'm going to start writing later today. Since con I haven't felt very positive, but that's because I saw my "friends" and for the most part the ones that showed up act like I should be on my knees rimming them out because they are such high-level beings and I'm the lowest form of life in the evolutionary chain. One even emailed me after the weekend and told me I was rude for not thanking him for being there a whole half-hour... but at least with the book the bad things that happen are only words on a page. Then have depth and meaning to me but their only words, ones that I believe in.
I have to make the day better. I'm great at a lot of things. And I cannot continue to allow myself to be hurt by these people who only come to see me when they have been dumped or in need of sleeping 20+ hours a day. Now if only one of the places I applied at would call me for an interview or better yet I got hired finally. Now that would make a good birthday present, lol.
Friday, May 27, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
Negative Man
So comic con is just 5 days away. Now if I was going to dress up I would have my costume done by this point. I was planning on going as Hige from Wolf's Rain. But oh no. Last night we decided (me and kara) that I was going to be a DC hero so I, like usual, chose a hero that is less known so I picked Negative Man from the series Doom Patrol. So like usual my mom will not allow me to use her sowing machine because she thinks I'll wreck it.
So Joe will be here Friday. I don't know what Nick's plans are but he's bringing his new girlfriend. It's so great when someone tells you they'll be single for months to get over their "heart break" yet get with a new person not even a week later. I hate how fickle some people are. And people who overly use the word love. But no time for rants. I'll be posting pics on my facebook after con and hopefully my birthday will be nice, the weekend after. Since my mom doesn't want to do anything with me...
But there is the update.
So Joe will be here Friday. I don't know what Nick's plans are but he's bringing his new girlfriend. It's so great when someone tells you they'll be single for months to get over their "heart break" yet get with a new person not even a week later. I hate how fickle some people are. And people who overly use the word love. But no time for rants. I'll be posting pics on my facebook after con and hopefully my birthday will be nice, the weekend after. Since my mom doesn't want to do anything with me...
But there is the update.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
why I post so late at night.
I don't really have an answer other then this is the last thing I do before I go to bed... granted that isn't until around 3 am...I wish I had something more to drive me but I don't so :P haha. Still working on the book. Writing more Peter parts yay!! Otherwise no progress on the story boards but the idea of doing the book as a graphic novel seems far more a dream of the future then the now. Though I did do a spread sheet with Jennie, her facial expressions and some poses but mostly stuck to faces.
I beat Dragon Quest 9 today WOO-HOO. The final boss Corvus was a bastard... my Sage died and I could not revive her as my theif (yeah, theif) crit'd on her super-high tension Falcon Slash with the Uber Falcon Blade so a 4-hit combo doing more then 8000 damage. This was awesome because normal critical hits do anywhere between 230-400 so for a 4-combo to do collectively 8000 damage the Uber-Falcon Blade was not a waste after all. Anyways, so doing post-game stuff. Getting the starry express back, become celestial again, defeating the legacy bosses. Stuff I will concur when I'm not working on this, lol.
I beat Dragon Quest 9 today WOO-HOO. The final boss Corvus was a bastard... my Sage died and I could not revive her as my theif (yeah, theif) crit'd on her super-high tension Falcon Slash with the Uber Falcon Blade so a 4-hit combo doing more then 8000 damage. This was awesome because normal critical hits do anywhere between 230-400 so for a 4-combo to do collectively 8000 damage the Uber-Falcon Blade was not a waste after all. Anyways, so doing post-game stuff. Getting the starry express back, become celestial again, defeating the legacy bosses. Stuff I will concur when I'm not working on this, lol.
Monday, May 9, 2011
As angels made from neon raise their open filthy stinking palms.
Subjectivity is the name of the game. Living in the hollowed out husk of someone else's dream. We strive for a place where we can rest our weary bones, but hope that that place isn't made up of the people you've hurt.
Forgiveness is easier then hating the world. Growing, maturing, perspectives change but do we ever really grow closer to knowing ourselves? Perfection is an ideal that can make you lose sight of your way.
Forgiveness is easier then hating the world. Growing, maturing, perspectives change but do we ever really grow closer to knowing ourselves? Perfection is an ideal that can make you lose sight of your way.
manga Miasma Angels?
So besides the obvious problems that come to mind right away.
This is what I've wanted to do with MA from the very beginning. As a child I wanted to be a cartoonist, as a teenager I wanted to draw comics, as I came into adulthood I still want to do both. But Miasma Angels was written and I have wanted to do this forever since I do art for the book regardless of people who have said its a dumb idea.
So I might be looking into doing this. I need to research a little more and start this new endeavor in my Miasma saga.
This is what I've wanted to do with MA from the very beginning. As a child I wanted to be a cartoonist, as a teenager I wanted to draw comics, as I came into adulthood I still want to do both. But Miasma Angels was written and I have wanted to do this forever since I do art for the book regardless of people who have said its a dumb idea.
So I might be looking into doing this. I need to research a little more and start this new endeavor in my Miasma saga.
Mother's day & the thunder of the morning after.
So mother's day I think we had fun.
I know I've been gone for a few days so I'll elaborate. So this was the weekend Thor came out... (Little known fact, I was originally intended to be named Thor if my father didn't already have a admiration for one Che Guevara, true story! PS I was always one of a set... but my other half didn't survive to birth. Also a true story.)
So we went to see the movie, which was great and I had a nerdgasm when they started talking about the Einstein-Rosen bridge! They even mentioned Arthur C. Clarke. Can you talk about cool! Makes me wanna work on Musicranger actually. But that is neither here nor there. Sentai-creations aside. We came home and I helped dig. I had no money to buy anything for my mother so I helped rearrange her garden, which entailed moving a very large decorative pool about 7 feet to the right and helping dig the new hole in which it now sits. Until my dad hit godzilla-rock and thought we could break it with an ice chipper... long story short a 7 inch move to the left and it's in we're good to go.
Also cool to note my mom when garage sale hopping and bought me a bike (I felt like I was 7 again) and I always thought that saying you never forget to ride a bike was a lie until I got on it and rode around the yard. After being chased by the sausage and becoming severely winded in a matter of less then 5 minutes I retired to the inside to work on MA after getting my dad to watch Rebuild of Evangelion 2.22... and DESPITE his bitching seemed to enjoy it, especially the more fan-servicey stuff... IE Asuka rolling around in bed. I wonder how much of my own perviness can be excused away from being the son of my father. And except for my mom who refuses to admit to any such vile trains of thought my dad (bless him embraces it wholeheartedly)
So I've gotten off track... it's late, I'm tired, had a few strange dreams in the last couple of days... one involving a internment camp in germany I know concentration camp is the real term but in the dream that's what we called it. The other was much more science fiction-y with hospital white walls, for parts of it... Running and being chased by something. I think it would be a great addition to MA and I really need to start a dream journal and stop just saying I'll have one, haha. But thunder always comforts me, along with the tapping of rain. Gives me a grounded yet floating sensation that I can really accomplish great things! Mind matter you know the saying, haha. Is it bad that I am really laughing to myself when typing this.
Oh, so one last little blurb... I was watching Episode 11 of Gokaiger and Episode 32 of Oh's and man I really could right a doctoral thesis one why I like these shows at the moment. Gokai especially the character rhetoric, the cast is so great, comedically they mesh well have beyond great chemistry and the timing, expressions MARVELOUS! OOOs for the cast, obviously, the story and the twists they but in. I love grey characters, especially in the manor Kamen Rider does this. It keeps you guessing for the most part where the story will be going. And for me I severely doubt the hero managing to pull off the miracle to save the say, I know this will be turned around in the end but its great to be in suspense like that. Anyways, good shows... no, Great shows which you should not expect anything less from Anniversary seasons 35 for sentai and the big 4-0 for Kamen Rider.
I know I've been gone for a few days so I'll elaborate. So this was the weekend Thor came out... (Little known fact, I was originally intended to be named Thor if my father didn't already have a admiration for one Che Guevara, true story! PS I was always one of a set... but my other half didn't survive to birth. Also a true story.)
So we went to see the movie, which was great and I had a nerdgasm when they started talking about the Einstein-Rosen bridge! They even mentioned Arthur C. Clarke. Can you talk about cool! Makes me wanna work on Musicranger actually. But that is neither here nor there. Sentai-creations aside. We came home and I helped dig. I had no money to buy anything for my mother so I helped rearrange her garden, which entailed moving a very large decorative pool about 7 feet to the right and helping dig the new hole in which it now sits. Until my dad hit godzilla-rock and thought we could break it with an ice chipper... long story short a 7 inch move to the left and it's in we're good to go.
Also cool to note my mom when garage sale hopping and bought me a bike (I felt like I was 7 again) and I always thought that saying you never forget to ride a bike was a lie until I got on it and rode around the yard. After being chased by the sausage and becoming severely winded in a matter of less then 5 minutes I retired to the inside to work on MA after getting my dad to watch Rebuild of Evangelion 2.22... and DESPITE his bitching seemed to enjoy it, especially the more fan-servicey stuff... IE Asuka rolling around in bed. I wonder how much of my own perviness can be excused away from being the son of my father. And except for my mom who refuses to admit to any such vile trains of thought my dad (bless him embraces it wholeheartedly)
So I've gotten off track... it's late, I'm tired, had a few strange dreams in the last couple of days... one involving a internment camp in germany I know concentration camp is the real term but in the dream that's what we called it. The other was much more science fiction-y with hospital white walls, for parts of it... Running and being chased by something. I think it would be a great addition to MA and I really need to start a dream journal and stop just saying I'll have one, haha. But thunder always comforts me, along with the tapping of rain. Gives me a grounded yet floating sensation that I can really accomplish great things! Mind matter you know the saying, haha. Is it bad that I am really laughing to myself when typing this.
Oh, so one last little blurb... I was watching Episode 11 of Gokaiger and Episode 32 of Oh's and man I really could right a doctoral thesis one why I like these shows at the moment. Gokai especially the character rhetoric, the cast is so great, comedically they mesh well have beyond great chemistry and the timing, expressions MARVELOUS! OOOs for the cast, obviously, the story and the twists they but in. I love grey characters, especially in the manor Kamen Rider does this. It keeps you guessing for the most part where the story will be going. And for me I severely doubt the hero managing to pull off the miracle to save the say, I know this will be turned around in the end but its great to be in suspense like that. Anyways, good shows... no, Great shows which you should not expect anything less from Anniversary seasons 35 for sentai and the big 4-0 for Kamen Rider.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
working.
Well really this is the lack of working. I'm not complaining with ALL this free time that I have... but I guess I am, haha. I do miss having a purpose other then working on the book. Real deadlines and and interactions with people... I wish that I had an allowance. But then I would be expected to do more, much more than I do. Wow, even with nothing I find things to gripe about. Ugh, someday I'll make it (with any luck that is) and I'll repay my parents and my friend 100 times over for the kindness they've all showed me. Such sympathy and well wishing really should be worth something. I just wish I could repay some of it now.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Who is Peter François Button?
He is many things but above all others he is human.
Is that vague enough for you world!!! Ambiguity is the name of the muther-F*N game and the one that makes the least sense wins.
But on a more serious note. I decided to add some gory details from his past into book 1's 4th rewrite... if you do the math that is like a rewrite every 1.75 years... So really this is a good thing. I'm obviously a slow learner and I will never give up on giving this world, these characters a proper tribute!
Major Changes:
*Hom is now Alba (gaelic word for home so I felt it fit better with the worldscope.)
*Stouri Beegens is Souien which is already pretty much canon besides some flub ups on my part.
*Jennie will be seeing more combat... literally. She'll be fighting by the festival. Albeit not as seasoned as Haru/Nigel/Jin but holding her own... I'm thinking of adding some Karate Kid moments for her and Haru create some tension. (okay someone can stop me if Haru/Jennie is bordering on pedophilia... it's supposed to be her first real crush and I SWEAR to YWVH I will not allow any perversions in my book that goes beyond the crush zone.)
*the introductions of Tamatsu, Tryst and Pierce may or may not happen anymore... I might have more fleshing out to do and I was thinking of either moving the monastery scene further towards the beginning to omitting it all together. That stuff is still in the air.
*Adding the COLORs is a definite but also omitting Joseph and any Zeriel portions, that stuff is WAY TOO early... but maybe not?
*Peter's back story will be added but only portions, the Rose stuff and his days with Pengelworm.
Is that vague enough for you world!!! Ambiguity is the name of the muther-F*N game and the one that makes the least sense wins.
But on a more serious note. I decided to add some gory details from his past into book 1's 4th rewrite... if you do the math that is like a rewrite every 1.75 years... So really this is a good thing. I'm obviously a slow learner and I will never give up on giving this world, these characters a proper tribute!
Major Changes:
*Hom is now Alba (gaelic word for home so I felt it fit better with the worldscope.)
*Stouri Beegens is Souien which is already pretty much canon besides some flub ups on my part.
*Jennie will be seeing more combat... literally. She'll be fighting by the festival. Albeit not as seasoned as Haru/Nigel/Jin but holding her own... I'm thinking of adding some Karate Kid moments for her and Haru create some tension. (okay someone can stop me if Haru/Jennie is bordering on pedophilia... it's supposed to be her first real crush and I SWEAR to YWVH I will not allow any perversions in my book that goes beyond the crush zone.)
*the introductions of Tamatsu, Tryst and Pierce may or may not happen anymore... I might have more fleshing out to do and I was thinking of either moving the monastery scene further towards the beginning to omitting it all together. That stuff is still in the air.
*Adding the COLORs is a definite but also omitting Joseph and any Zeriel portions, that stuff is WAY TOO early... but maybe not?
*Peter's back story will be added but only portions, the Rose stuff and his days with Pengelworm.
Brother-in-Laws
So yeah, I wasn't home at all last night so I didn't get much written but I did get to read (no harry potter 4 but you know I'm taking my time with Harry and his crew, lol.) Mike called me last night and reminded me that they wanted me to come to St. Cloud with them for his leg refitting. Yay... er, not so much. Got over to Kara's around 10 last night and watched Mike play his baseball game for an hour then he watched Hawaii 5-0 and I read this secret society book Kara had left at the 'rents. Then Kara got home and after she did her after work ritual we watched 2 episodes of Red Green... then they went to bed and I watched American Dad/Family Guy then read a little more and went to bed... that was around 3:15 right at 7 o'clock Mike's alarm started going off and he took his sweet time to turn it off (by sweet time I mean 10-15 minutes. That's a stubborn alarm, lol.) Then he woke up and chugged through the house (there is no honest way to describe the sound his walker makes as he shuffles around.) The step-nephew was off to school and I pretended to stay asleep to avoid awkward conversations.
We were 20 minutes late for his appointment and I stayed in the waiting room, playing my ds while Mike was refitted and measured. This is the first time since the wedding I've seen him dawn his leg. And I don't know why it irks me so much that he doesn't use it but it does. I guess I always imagine what if it was me in that position. You know I wouldn't let losing my leg stop me! He just doesn't have the drive and it really seems like a shame.
So after that we bummed around crossroads for a while and Kara decided to buy a ring. (maybe it's a female thing or just my sister but she purchases jewelery for the strangest reasons?) I saw at one of the kiosks that they had a copy of Bomberman Hero... I wish I hadn't sold my n64 when I was 14... I loved that game SO much and I think someday I will try and get it again. Anyways, then I got home after some magical vehicle swapping and got home to see my facebook was hacked... ugh. So I changed the password, again (this is #6) and talked to a old RPing buddy. So there's the update. I have to think of what to have for dinner and then I'm gonna try working on MA some. I've been thinking about it more and feeling rejuvenated at the idea of working on it.
We were 20 minutes late for his appointment and I stayed in the waiting room, playing my ds while Mike was refitted and measured. This is the first time since the wedding I've seen him dawn his leg. And I don't know why it irks me so much that he doesn't use it but it does. I guess I always imagine what if it was me in that position. You know I wouldn't let losing my leg stop me! He just doesn't have the drive and it really seems like a shame.
So after that we bummed around crossroads for a while and Kara decided to buy a ring. (maybe it's a female thing or just my sister but she purchases jewelery for the strangest reasons?) I saw at one of the kiosks that they had a copy of Bomberman Hero... I wish I hadn't sold my n64 when I was 14... I loved that game SO much and I think someday I will try and get it again. Anyways, then I got home after some magical vehicle swapping and got home to see my facebook was hacked... ugh. So I changed the password, again (this is #6) and talked to a old RPing buddy. So there's the update. I have to think of what to have for dinner and then I'm gonna try working on MA some. I've been thinking about it more and feeling rejuvenated at the idea of working on it.
Monday, May 2, 2011
the Miasma Angels
So yep, I seemed to have found a new wind... it's a slow building gust but soon it'll be taking me over and returning me to the longest love. The MA universe, the only success I've had in my short 25 years on this planet. I am adding to the world, a very dear friend and fellow writer has been SO much help that I cannot honestly thank her enough. She'll remain ambiguous for the moment but she'll have a special shout out in the revised dedications.
As for updates... I've added more dialogue to Peter and Barbara and I am VERY happy with this. It's like I'm just getting to know these two. They are so wonderful and it'll be great to finally flesh them out. EVEN Otto is finally getting dialogue, I'm sure he's had some things to say but I'm glad his childhood mutism passed. And finally getting to introduce Rio to the world as more then the bubbly girlfriend. She'll be surprising to see where she'll take her parts :D
Also I want to add that the book will be ending in a new place. This will hopefully give a more suspenseful and climactic ending. One that I feel is much more proper than the ending I caved into putting in because of my feelings of inadequacy. Jin will be fleshed out and I am a little unsure if I should add his backstory. If I can find a way to link it properly then I will be adding it in. Also Haru's role will be expanded and I may or may not be delving into more of his back story.
Well that is the book update. I hope the ether is kind to all those that are out there.
As for updates... I've added more dialogue to Peter and Barbara and I am VERY happy with this. It's like I'm just getting to know these two. They are so wonderful and it'll be great to finally flesh them out. EVEN Otto is finally getting dialogue, I'm sure he's had some things to say but I'm glad his childhood mutism passed. And finally getting to introduce Rio to the world as more then the bubbly girlfriend. She'll be surprising to see where she'll take her parts :D
Also I want to add that the book will be ending in a new place. This will hopefully give a more suspenseful and climactic ending. One that I feel is much more proper than the ending I caved into putting in because of my feelings of inadequacy. Jin will be fleshed out and I am a little unsure if I should add his backstory. If I can find a way to link it properly then I will be adding it in. Also Haru's role will be expanded and I may or may not be delving into more of his back story.
Well that is the book update. I hope the ether is kind to all those that are out there.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Breaks and Dragon Quest 9
So one of my infamous Ex's Liz caught me on Facebook the other day and I'm pretty sure she had been drinking just because she was changing the subject a lot. But she expressed the desire to work on something with me... For whatever reason she thinks us doing this will somehow put us back in the place so we might date. I've expressed that I don't want to be with her anymore she's hurt me more then I like to admit even to myself so I picked a story I haven't touched in a while with the knowledge that because of it she would most likely go back to her corner of the internet. But this time she said she wanted to try working on it. Surprise much. Well we'll see if she gets back to me about this.
Also I've been playing Dragon Quest 9 some more and my official time is around 110 hours. So yeah, the only game I've played more than this is the Persona series. Which I cannot wait for 'Catherine' to come out OMG that game looks good! Anyways. Just trying to keep myself to updating more then once every 6 months to a year.
Also I've been playing Dragon Quest 9 some more and my official time is around 110 hours. So yeah, the only game I've played more than this is the Persona series. Which I cannot wait for 'Catherine' to come out OMG that game looks good! Anyways. Just trying to keep myself to updating more then once every 6 months to a year.
Taking breaks and Zoranger.
So one of my infamous Ex's Liz caught me on Facebook the other day and I'm pretty sure she had been drinking just because she was changing the subject a lot. But she expressed the desire to work on something with me... For whatever reason she thinks us doing this will somehow put us back in the place so we might date. I've expressed that I don't want to be with her anymore she's hurt me more then I like to admit even to myself so I picked a story I haven't touched in a while with the knowledge that because of it she would most likely go back to her corner of the internet. But this time she said she wanted to try working on it. Surprise much. Well we'll see if she gets back to me about this.
Also I've been playing Dragon Quest 9 some more and my official time is around 110 hours. So yeah, the only game I've played more than this is the Persona series. Which I cannot wait for 'Catherine' to come out OMG that game looks good! Anyways. Just trying to keep myself to updating more then once every 6 months to a year.
Also I've been playing Dragon Quest 9 some more and my official time is around 110 hours. So yeah, the only game I've played more than this is the Persona series. Which I cannot wait for 'Catherine' to come out OMG that game looks good! Anyways. Just trying to keep myself to updating more then once every 6 months to a year.
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